DescriptionI am 53 year old woman I have one daughter at home 19 her girlfriend lives with us and their two-year-old son . I've raised three other daughters are all living out on their own married have their own lives I feel like a burden like my whole life's been a mess I can tell you the usual stuff about why or what's happened to me or hasn't been an easy life put it that way I never had any luck no luck at money no luck at man relationships friends family I lost my parents at a young age there's a million and one reasons why I've done the things that I've done I was clean for 13 years I was proud of that I worked hard I had a good job I finally I got a promotion where I can take care of myself till I retired I was really proud of that I only had my promotion for a year I was in a relationship I thought he was the one my soul mate can I retire was in only be happy but that's not the case he was a liar beginning I don't know why but he used me pretending to be something that he wasn't. devastated all my daughters were moving away. I thought I'd finally be happy start a new part of my life that just happened backwards to the whole part of my life I was devastated for a year-and-a-half I've never been so low my daughter's I just really don't want to mess with me blame them I feel so alone I don't want to do anything stupid Pro first time ever not having Christmas this year have anybody struggling even pay my rent I've been here for almost 5 years and I've been late the last 3 months and 5 years I put a lot of money into this house I was almost ready to be able to buy something all of my own I got fired I'm depressed can I get a lie I want my life back I know I've got myself in legal trouble and I wasn't even home and I know that people say that over and over again I'm not perfect by no means deserve to go to prison out of the three drug charges I have only one of them was mine does that make sense my ex husband's friend of mine probably would have known then what I know now I work too hard that I have my records so I can get them better myself it's all falling apart I don't know what to do they want me to work for them and I don't even know anybody to do that I wanted that life I was just depressed I so want my life back but one thing I need help with more than anything is Christmas is in 12 days electric stop them paid Waters. Been paid to talk and come crashing down and then even any minute they can take me to jail I know the people ask for money that are in situations like this and you don't trust that they're going to do the right thing but I promise you I'm going to do the right thing I just need help and I don't know who to ask so I'm going to send this out I'm not going to send it where I live I don't I don't want to deal with that can I put my PayPal on here are you going to Walmart to Walmart my name is Stacie Caldwell. I live in Iowa please if you can find it in your heart to help me help my family. I don't even have a Christmas tree I promise I will pay it forward but I will do the right thing with the rest of the time that I have left here on Earth PLS I need help.
Dec 9th 2018
2117 east 40th court Des Moines Ia 50317